What is the
living and regret,
how do feel
what is this
in our chest,
where do we go
tell me what
what is the
an answer to
save our breath,
long letters, heart
felt quests, the
belief in love
and death, do we
thrive or only
do we lie, how
do we determine
when to fly,
when to reply,
when to cry,
death is never
finished, we circle
and replenish, our
seeds laid, pollens
replicate, do we
die or reincarnate
is life moving,
is expiring known,
what do we hide,
what do we show,
the soul to
settle and grow,
when do our
roots configure to
a universal flow,
are we the Gods
on planet Eden,
are angels among,
the eagles and crows,
what do we sing
how do we know
tell me slow.
This is my passage to progress and potential. My declaration to my dreams and true self. My ode to express my spirit and soul. My devotion to develop my mind and body.
One thing I’ve taken for granted is education and learning. I took time off of school and focused on working. As much as I love the freedom of no homework or tests, I longed for being taught and researching information. I started reading more, watching documentaries, writing creatively, creating projects and developing goals for myself. I gravitated towards the Law of Attraction in The Secret documentary and used the concepts to outline my philosophy and karma.
I envisioned my future and formulated who I wanted to be. I was eager to illuminate my mind, enlighten my soul and emerge my body to reach it’s fullest potential.
I am on the path to chase my highest vision and deepest dreams. Taking classes, courses, projects, trainings etc which better myself. I am accepting the guidance and grasping the edification advantage. I want to direct my consciousness to my desired study and fuel my brain with every culture. Relating every action, experience, person, work as a learning opportunity, a chance to connect to another embrace or element.
I choose not to chase after people, beliefs or activities which distract me or demote me. I will no longer focus on one aspect being more significant over another. Accepting every manifestation because the ideal aspects already exist around you and attract to you. Existences meant to be in your environment, will be. Whether for love, support, growth or fulfillment ….The right relations will either join your equation or link you to the next correspondence.
I am trying to become the fullest expression of myself. The ultimate outcome. I need to construct the optimal version of myself before I can completely give myself or my fortune to another. I am not interested in sex or lust. I am interested in love and compassion. The joining of energies to form reactions and results. Accessing the association of equal kindness and mutual understanding between an embrace or element. Producing an environment of balance and establishment, within your universe and the external realm. I need to construct my own world and horizon before I can share it.
I thirst for absorbing art, breathtaking nature, encountering philosophies, inspiring words, uplifting music and soul-escaping moments. I aspire to become the most innovative and reactive self, expressing my inner and outer abstractions.
Developing a magnet effect by establishing goals to achieve and destinations to discover. Devoting space and thought for self-evolution. I think down time should include reflecting, refueling, restoring and renewing the mind, body and soul. Finding the passageway to a clear consciousness and active awareness.
Traveling and feeding the spirit with wisdom and experience. Every human encounter teaches us a lesson and contributes a piece to our puzzle. An emotion shared which brings you closer to your soul. Such instances enrich you to act out your message, passion and purpose.
The graceful gift of art and literature,
beautiful emergences on fresh surfaces,
essences crafted, presence from the inner chi,
constructed display of thought and release,
free of judgement, creative ease,
No rights or wrongs, emotions of songs,
styles to fly, reasons to salt the stye,
feelings stroke meaning, wanders to whys,
a spirited cry, euphoric self high,
the message to give, a proposal to live,
a quest to reel, expression of one’s real,
propaganda’s to flow, a swept away soul,
the once clouded, now risen and guided,
words flayed, fingers prayed, joys laid,
here’s my treasure, my core’s endeavor,
a light shown, my awareness cued,
an honest renew and seen so few,
cherish this hue, my canvas traced true,
a glimpse of love, to share with you.
peace & blessings,
my drunken body
led me to your escape
the surrounded slate
my aching clean plate
so you take me in late
lay me in your space
sink me in your arms
never floated so far
adventures to explore
where have i met you
maybe a time before
our mystery hues
show me the horizon
your stye illuminates
my mind now light
I’ve forgotten time
your boxed presence
pinch my existence
our rooftop floors
who is in this world
you’re my only vision
my spirit glows
your energies grow
you’ve been who
I’ve been looking for
through my third eye
your expanding aeons
our starry science
your dusk reliance
I only feel rain
no down pours
take me there
our gypsy affair
fly me through
our misted fears
broken tree stares
when will our
I shield my lust,
your intimate touch,
slowing my rush,
the savasana savior,
your reactive impact,
always guides me back.
With the warm temperatures embracing our skin and the sun kissing our faces, I find it necessary to take time out of my busy schedule and absorb the energy of the Summer. I love warm weather, I love the smiling personalities in the neighborhood, I love the active creatures outside, I love the freckled filled faces and I love the enjoyment of being outside in nature with the ones you love.
I have reactivated my inner child and found so much happiness in the outdoors. I have recently bought a hoola hoop, wind chimes, Ficus plant, seeds, outdoor lights and sun screen to take my adventures to the next level.
There’s something so sensual about drinking your first cup of coffee on the deck and not thinking anything of your time or day. Closing your eyes to breathe in the trees, feeling the breeze in the silence and relaxing to comforting aromas in your cup. My week and mornings have drastically transformed by taking time out of my day to simply partake or relax in the scene of nature.
I’ve been discovering new trees, flowers, plants or escapes on an outdoor journey. I find nature so beautiful and breath-taking, how something so simplistic yet complex surrounds us in every aspect of life. An organism thriving on outside existence and care to grow to a magnificent being. Nature doesn’t run on time, money, pressures or limits, and they flourish on their own measures.
Nature is so beneficial to our inner and outer world, trees providing our oxygen, plants providing nourishment, flowers providing flavor or flare, so many aspects I take for granted that provide our daily essentials.
I want to be; taking natural supplements, making healthy-natural food, sticking to healthy products with Nature’s elements, devoting time to appreciate and nurture Nature and continuing to grow and replenish Earth’s Nature.
I believe we are here to protect, provide and produce for Mother Earth.
I believe it is programmed in the females to feed, nourish and love all of Earth’s children and plants.
I believe we poses all our powers and strength to keep us alive.
I believe Earth possesses all of the natural cures and surviving minerals to cure all.
I believe “Dis-Ease” is created emotionally, mentally, internally and then physically.
I believe everything surrounding you; items, places, nature, weather, people, signs, superstitions, conversations, actions, dreams and impulses are shaping our fate and directing us to the next journey.
I believe we can cure ourselves and save ourselves from sickness and sadness.
I believe in natural roles of Earth; leader, teacher, healer, entertainer, protector and farmer.
I believe we are here to support, build and strengthen our neighbors, family, friends, lovers and enemies.
I believe our destiny is written within, around and outside our mind, body and soul.
I believe who we are is vibrating from us, we carry and construct our own universe.
I believe we see with our soul, the soul being the delicate design in your eye, our beautiful circled planets.
“On the way to get away from where you are, you can run so fast that you miss the blessings along the way. By the time you realize that you have missed them, a major portion of your life has taken place without you.”-Iyanla Vanzant
I have recently been struggling with inner issues dealing with past faults and pain. It’s a burden that overwhelms your spirit when it comes across love and happiness. Being broken is almost a liberating feeling, you have no place to go but up. You are in no rush to get the cracks filled, you let life fill them for you. With being broken comes the past paranoia which brought the hurt, when you come to similar issues, you cant help but convince yourself that the circumstances will be the same.
I met two people when I was broken, both of which became my best friends. I knew there was something special about them and wanted to take more interest in them. We both instantly clicked, one became my female best friend and the other was a male I started to see. They would give me their attention, share their life, enjoy time with me and were willing to show me how beautiful I was. I couldn’t bring myself to the realization that someone thought so highly of me, someone thought so highly of our relationship. They wanted to be apart of my everyday, my joy, my laughter and my time. I created scenarios in my mind to slowly push them out and to sink in my loneliness. I would rather be alone than risk the potential of becoming hurt and losing these people.
I had a connection to them, I could feel their pain, I could feel their happiness, I could feel their struggles, I could feel their heart and I could feel their soul. Something would come over me when we would engaged in a deep conversations. My spirit shifted to the top layer of my skin, and released my inner knowing and answers to their life. I learned so much about myself through them, I saw myself in them and we were weak and strong together. I couldn’t accept the fact that we were a reflection of one another, that they were just like me, broken, irritated and irrational. I wasn’t there yet to give them love or become the love they needed. I felt as if they were overwhelming me, suffocating me, I became numb and was no longer fully presence.
They were both a big role in my motivation to spiritual wellness and healing. My girl friend and I would go to meditations, practice restorative yoga, have spiritual talks, encouraging talks and would bring each other up. My boy friend would remind me how beautiful and amazing I was, encourage me to take care of my body, to be positive, to challenge my mind, body and soul and encouraged my fitness in yoga. When complementary energy is taken from your soul, you feel hopeless and lose your sense of self. I am a firm believer in self-healing and discovery but I know it takes a community of soul mates to bring you up along the way.
” And it was during this time that spirit and I became all but strangers. On most days, I lost track of my spiritual practices and my faith. I prayed and I meditated, but I was no longer sure what I believed or how I felt about what I believed. The thing that saved me and my faith alive was when I sat to write, stood before an audience to speak, or coached another person, I could feel the living presence of Spirit in my being.” -Iyanla Vanzant
I tried to escape them, but I couldn’t. They were apart of my everyday life, apart of my outer happiness and internal healing. I grew very ill, uninvolved in outside life and wanted to be left alone. I wasn’t ready to open up to the monster I was, the pain i suffered to get to that point or the sickness in my heart. It was crowding my mind and I needed out. I needed to come clean of the past, come clean of who I was and come clean of the wounds.
I started to pray to God, ask for healing and forgiveness. I needed to make things right with them and find the sanity to set me free. I took some on Saturday to finish up an old book regarding healing. Quotes would jump out at me, phrases would bring shivers and I felt this weight release from me. I went inside to validate and reassure my healing. I did a yoga routine and slowly eased into savasana. I begin to meditate, I heard the answers, I felt the intentions for these two souls and I knew my purpose in my life. My eyes began to shed cold, comforting tears to signify the release of the past and sickness in my heart. I came back outside and wrote my girlfriend a heart-felt letter and reached out to her. It was a lot harder to open up and ask for forgiveness from her rather than my past boyfriend, I finally opened up to him on the monster I was and the monsters I endured. It brought us closer and connected us deeper.
There is a part of us in everyone, there is a sickness or strain in everyone’s heart, no one wants to be evil or without love. Everyone is broken, everyone endures different type of pain, it is up to us to help break past those walls and find their shinning soul. You grow as person when you help someone you love grow, you heal as a person when you are apart of someones healing. Never give up on someone who would never give up on you, it is so much easier to quit and run away. Struggles provide strength, tears shed us of the elements which hold us back and love will always set you free.
Recent celebrations of faith, rebirth and passover has created an endless feeling of being blessed in my heart. I am so thankful for every day, light and experience in my life-which makes me..me and develops my life.
*One of my favorite times of the year*
The transition of Spring to Summer
The warming weather has me energetic. Spring’s essence is fluttering my writing bloom. The Sun’s shine is inspiring my inner light.
I have been writing a lot and will be sharing a piece every week of what “I Believe” and what evokes my mind, body and soul.
I believe we endure heartbreak and tragedy to grow and become stronger.
I believe I’ve vacationed darkness multiple times, but always traveled to light to guide me through.
I believe I pray, meditate and practice yoga to strengthen my soul.
I believe I have been praying for the right path and for forgiveness.
I believe I am created and inspired for a specific reason.
I believe I am the light, God chooses to move and speak through me in dire times.
I believe we are here to teach, inspire and learn from others as well as ourselves.
I believe I am given signs from a higher power and the universe to better myself and this planet.
I believe I write with meaning, honesty and pureness of the soul.
I believe I have a reason, message and story to tell.
Home is where the heart is. Home is where the comfort in your heart resides. Home is the warmth which fills you with ease and provides a state of safety. The memories of intimate interactions, soft snuggles, long laughs and nestled-in-nights. We value these moments when we need them the most. When our heart aches for completion and our mind craves the sensual scenes.
Why is that we are only content with home life or the outside world when we are satisfied inside with loved ones? Why do we only glorify a season’s weather for the upcoming Holiday? We anticipate an upcoming event with the assistance of expected weather.
This winter has been pretty harsh and almost bi-polar. One of the most warm days will bring a sleet storm the next. Our bodies and spirits have been suffering the costs of the sporadic temperatures. Exhausted from the cold conditions, tense from the cabin fever and emotionally drained from weather let downs. We base our days and moods off the surrounding forecasts. Something so simple as a snow fall or rain wash turns our inner storms.
Why is that we graciously endure the weather conditions and traveling lengths for the wholesome tradition. It’s the sense of comfort, the feeling of belonging and the satisfaction of affection. Why do we continue to partake chilling outcomes and frosty days? Why does everyone in Iowa or from the colder regions proceed to settle in such weather?
“Happiness doesn’t lie in conspicuous consumption and the relentless amassing of useless crap. Happiness lies in the person sitting beside you and your ability to talk to them. Happiness is clear-headed human interaction and empathy. Happiness is home. And home is not a house-home is a mythological conceit. It is a state of mind. A place of communion and unconditional love. It is where, when you cross its threshold, you finally feel at peace.”
To be home is to be at peace with our inner state, to feel natural, tranquil and pure. Establishing home begins with our heart, values, comfort, pillars of morals and true being of ourself. Most of the time it takes a traumatic experience, vacation, absent soul or voyage to a new path to realize what “Home” actually is for us. Nothing outside of our inner world or existence should affect us as long as we are grounded to the meaning of “Home.”
We focus our frustrations on the outside, pry inner our problems on the negative environment. When do we stop letting the weather determine our inside stillness? When will we take time to live out the currents and appreciate our surrounding season?
Every once in a while Winter would embrace us with a 40-50 degree day, allowing us a bittersweet glimpse of Spring. It is so uplifting to see people participating in natures given treat, making the most of their weather and moment of bearable weather.
With the transition of Winter to Spring, we cherish the maturing warmth and provide energy to the outside existence.
I have lived in Iowa all my life, I have been apart of every season and have experienced varied weather lengths. I find myself getting frustrated during the colder times, bundled up inside and suffering from cabin fever. I have recently taken this winter to do a lot of inner reflecting, inside myself and my home. Being upset with the outside activities will change nothing and being inactive with the temperature doesn’t benefit me… just makes the winter woes win over me.
I no longer see the weather as an enemy, now just a new setting of my life.You become more appreciative towards your given day, more inviting to the rare bursts of warm embraces and more involved in natures dynamism. You learn to accept the current environment and adapt to Mother Earth’s fallen essence. Every downfall, obstacle or trouble causes a new opportunity for growth and beginning of change.
I am blessed to say I live in a state with four seasons, every changed leaf is a way to renew yourself in nature’s turnover. A fresh wind to flow outside your home and absorb in the magic of the season. I have been observing nature a lot more, the layers of sunsets colors, the activity between the breeze of the trees and the interaction with animals and insects.
We are all apart of the beautiful manifestation of life, the developers of natures environment and the observers of progressing seasons. As visitors and travelers of Earth, it is our role to take care of the plants and grounds that fill our horizons. It is our role to appreciate and show respect to the other living organisms and forms of creation. In order to vibrate with our external world, we must value our internal world and capture our rightful place. Once we are unified with this connection, our attachment to love and home carries with us where ever we may be.
Home is the serenity which we hold close to our heart. The sweet reminisces of childhood, the contentment of belonging and the ease of being loved. No matter where I travel, embark a new life or lay for night’s rest, I shut my eyes to the wholesomeness of where my heart resides and those who fill my scenes of completion.
APPRECIATE YOUR NATURE AND NURTURE OF HOME