“On the way to get away from where you are, you can run so fast that you miss the blessings along the way. By the time you realize that you have missed them, a major portion of your life has taken place without you.”-Iyanla Vanzant
I have recently been struggling with inner issues dealing with past faults and pain. It’s a burden that overwhelms your spirit when it comes across love and happiness. Being broken is almost a liberating feeling, you have no place to go but up. You are in no rush to get the cracks filled, you let life fill them for you. With being broken comes the past paranoia which brought the hurt, when you come to similar issues, you cant help but convince yourself that the circumstances will be the same.
I met two people when I was broken, both of which became my best friends. I knew there was something special about them and wanted to take more interest in them. We both instantly clicked, one became my female best friend and the other was a male I started to see. They would give me their attention, share their life, enjoy time with me and were willing to show me how beautiful I was. I couldn’t bring myself to the realization that someone thought so highly of me, someone thought so highly of our relationship. They wanted to be apart of my everyday, my joy, my laughter and my time. I created scenarios in my mind to slowly push them out and to sink in my loneliness. I would rather be alone than risk the potential of becoming hurt and losing these people.
I had a connection to them, I could feel their pain, I could feel their happiness, I could feel their struggles, I could feel their heart and I could feel their soul. Something would come over me when we would engaged in a deep conversations. My spirit shifted to the top layer of my skin, and released my inner knowing and answers to their life. I learned so much about myself through them, I saw myself in them and we were weak and strong together. I couldn’t accept the fact that we were a reflection of one another, that they were just like me, broken, irritated and irrational. I wasn’t there yet to give them love or become the love they needed. I felt as if they were overwhelming me, suffocating me, I became numb and was no longer fully presence.
They were both a big role in my motivation to spiritual wellness and healing. My girl friend and I would go to meditations, practice restorative yoga, have spiritual talks, encouraging talks and would bring each other up. My boy friend would remind me how beautiful and amazing I was, encourage me to take care of my body, to be positive, to challenge my mind, body and soul and encouraged my fitness in yoga. When complementary energy is taken from your soul, you feel hopeless and lose your sense of self. I am a firm believer in self-healing and discovery but I know it takes a community of soul mates to bring you up along the way.
” And it was during this time that spirit and I became all but strangers. On most days, I lost track of my spiritual practices and my faith. I prayed and I meditated, but I was no longer sure what I believed or how I felt about what I believed. The thing that saved me and my faith alive was when I sat to write, stood before an audience to speak, or coached another person, I could feel the living presence of Spirit in my being.” -Iyanla Vanzant
I tried to escape them, but I couldn’t. They were apart of my everyday life, apart of my outer happiness and internal healing. I grew very ill, uninvolved in outside life and wanted to be left alone. I wasn’t ready to open up to the monster I was, the pain i suffered to get to that point or the sickness in my heart. It was crowding my mind and I needed out. I needed to come clean of the past, come clean of who I was and come clean of the wounds.
I started to pray to God, ask for healing and forgiveness. I needed to make things right with them and find the sanity to set me free. I took some on Saturday to finish up an old book regarding healing. Quotes would jump out at me, phrases would bring shivers and I felt this weight release from me. I went inside to validate and reassure my healing. I did a yoga routine and slowly eased into savasana. I begin to meditate, I heard the answers, I felt the intentions for these two souls and I knew my purpose in my life. My eyes began to shed cold, comforting tears to signify the release of the past and sickness in my heart. I came back outside and wrote my girlfriend a heart-felt letter and reached out to her. It was a lot harder to open up and ask for forgiveness from her rather than my past boyfriend, I finally opened up to him on the monster I was and the monsters I endured. It brought us closer and connected us deeper.
There is a part of us in everyone, there is a sickness or strain in everyone’s heart, no one wants to be evil or without love. Everyone is broken, everyone endures different type of pain, it is up to us to help break past those walls and find their shinning soul. You grow as person when you help someone you love grow, you heal as a person when you are apart of someones healing. Never give up on someone who would never give up on you, it is so much easier to quit and run away. Struggles provide strength, tears shed us of the elements which hold us back and love will always set you free.
The rule breakers wanting a challenge.
The wild in need of an adventure.
The explorers in search of an environment.
The wanderers approaching an escape.
The controlled in a mission to find an outlet.
The curious seeking a new experiment.
The lonely souls destined for a fresh start.
The lost trying to blend in and belong.
The fearless who followed their gut.
Who are you to judge these people? Who are you to question their interests or behaviors? Who are you to stereotype appearances and actions? Who are you to speak on their circumstance or situation?
Well, you’re one of them, once were or developing to be. We are all so similar yet different, We are a community and we are all connected. The most beautiful thing about those listed above, is they follow their gut without a care in the world. They are so much themselves it intimidates those in their surrounding. We choose to judge them because we envy their carelessness in wanting to fit in and their lack in needing approval.
Why are they judged for taking a chance, thinking on their own and discovering something new. Who is to say self exploration and self experiments are for those who are crazy or lost? Who defines the guide lines and decides the wrong doings? Can you judge or speak on something with no trial or true word on the subject? Who decides for themselves?
Those who took a chance on an experience to risk yourself and judgements. You dip your toe in the dark water, step into unfamiliar grounds, follow your pleasures and dive into the unknown. There is something so refreshing of not knowing how something is going to work out or affect you. It is a scary but beautiful thing, giving your all to an experience which you have no control over… Isn’t that what discovery and our journey is all about?
Going in blind, senseless, numb, broken, strong, weak or fearless eases the strain through new dimensions. You travel through the built up walls, break past your ego and taste temptation for all its worth. Being destroyed leads to re-creation. Being lost inside leads to a new lifeline, journey or world. We shed ourselves of the history, layer, images and build up. We strip down the stereotypes, ideals, opinions and criticism of others to be ourselves so outwardly and purely, to where no outside existence can break us or stop us from what we are desired to be.
” The Grand Canyon is the perfect example of beauty of erosion. Over thousand of years that amazing formation of rock devolved in to what it is today- a fabulous spectacle of nature’s artwork. You too are a work of erosion. While we sometimes think of erosion as a bad thing because it is the wearing away of something, there is beauty in it too. And ultimately, if we evolve as a devolve, we become beautiful works of art as well..”
A fresh spark to amp our current state. Why label those you don’t understand, that would make you ignorant. We are reinventing, recycling, renewing, revitalizing, recreating and rejuvenating our own world, on the inside, outside or where ever you belong.
We are in charge of our light, purpose, role, health and strength. We need to be the best form of ourselves, following our soul purpose and spirited path so others will radiate with us on the way. Building together with others, shaping ourselves, directing paths, sharing positivity and becoming a community. Find yourself to find the world, find the beauty in yourself to find the beauty in others, embrace your energy and the energy of others. Life is reactive and reflective. You construct your outer world with supportive humans. You command your inner being and control your mindset.
Be you. Be beautiful. Be vibrant. Be blessed.
Be the Love.
I love my life too much to waste my energy and time “hating” someone or something so purely.
Life is too precious to devote such negativity. Living free, worrying less and opening environments. No one is an enemy, objects pass if not favored. Never an obstacle or battle.
Flow from a centered mind. Relaxed movements, guiding you to fate. Feelings of ease provides insight. Pushing through the body,actions from inside. Stimulating the mind to breeze on by. Never forcing anything that doesn’t feel right, taking chances on what feels natural and most meaningful. Finding yourself by you’re strengths and weaknesses.
Channeling in on what makes your best self and not by the judgements of others. Agree to disagree, never a closed statement. Bridges never burnt, relations always settled. Learning through memories, struggles and sorrows.
Everything is an experience, educated through actions and mistakes. Constructive criticism only, programmed to smile and be strong in every situation.
Always expanding the mind, body and soul. Mindfulness always present. Understanding yourself to understand others. Respect for yourself, humbled achievements, blessed from success and gratefulness of life’s reward.
An appreciation of life, love only giving and souls consuming. Forever grasping the meanings of who we are and why we are here.
This is my inner release of my mind, body and soul.
A relief from this wild life and escape from the ego.
An explanation of my spirit and entry to the world.
I believe in the sparkle of one’s spirit.
I believe everyone is so quirky and unique.
I believe I can love and experience everyone differently, yet special.
I believe there’s a part of you in everyone and we help each other become our full potential.
I believe there’s a special reaction to your energy, passion and others.
I believe you feel more intensely when you experience a person, place, smell, image or memory.. which makes you who you are.
I believe you remember certain memories so vividly because you truly felt alive and full of emotion.
I believe true passions are found in your childhood.
I believe we are shaped by early aspirations, joys, habits, hobbies and frequencies.
I believe we lose track of who we are when we let world define and judge us, to be lost is to be free and to dream is to fly.
I believe the most honest beings are elders, children and animals, with a simplistic reality of the world.
I believe there is a universal truth of peace, love and equality.
I believe love, discovery and reflection is our sent journey from a higher power.
I believe animals, nature, astrology and weather are all in tune and we the humans are responsible for admiration and appreciation
I believe in the beauty in a flowers bloom, leaves color changing, storm’s ending rainbow, sparkling through trees and the sunsets transforming glow.
Enjoy the simple aspects of your life. Focus on the elements which create your happiness.
Be who you want to be without a care in the world.
Act out the art in your heart.
Inspire the world and share your light!
Home is where the heart is. Home is where the comfort in your heart resides. Home is the warmth which fills you with ease and provides a state of safety. The memories of intimate interactions, soft snuggles, long laughs and nestled-in-nights. We value these moments when we need them the most. When our heart aches for completion and our mind craves the sensual scenes.
Why is that we are only content with home life or the outside world when we are satisfied inside with loved ones? Why do we only glorify a season’s weather for the upcoming Holiday? We anticipate an upcoming event with the assistance of expected weather.
This winter has been pretty harsh and almost bi-polar. One of the most warm days will bring a sleet storm the next. Our bodies and spirits have been suffering the costs of the sporadic temperatures. Exhausted from the cold conditions, tense from the cabin fever and emotionally drained from weather let downs. We base our days and moods off the surrounding forecasts. Something so simple as a snow fall or rain wash turns our inner storms.
Why is that we graciously endure the weather conditions and traveling lengths for the wholesome tradition. It’s the sense of comfort, the feeling of belonging and the satisfaction of affection. Why do we continue to partake chilling outcomes and frosty days? Why does everyone in Iowa or from the colder regions proceed to settle in such weather?
“Happiness doesn’t lie in conspicuous consumption and the relentless amassing of useless crap. Happiness lies in the person sitting beside you and your ability to talk to them. Happiness is clear-headed human interaction and empathy. Happiness is home. And home is not a house-home is a mythological conceit. It is a state of mind. A place of communion and unconditional love. It is where, when you cross its threshold, you finally feel at peace.”
To be home is to be at peace with our inner state, to feel natural, tranquil and pure. Establishing home begins with our heart, values, comfort, pillars of morals and true being of ourself. Most of the time it takes a traumatic experience, vacation, absent soul or voyage to a new path to realize what “Home” actually is for us. Nothing outside of our inner world or existence should affect us as long as we are grounded to the meaning of “Home.”
We focus our frustrations on the outside, pry inner our problems on the negative environment. When do we stop letting the weather determine our inside stillness? When will we take time to live out the currents and appreciate our surrounding season?
Every once in a while Winter would embrace us with a 40-50 degree day, allowing us a bittersweet glimpse of Spring. It is so uplifting to see people participating in natures given treat, making the most of their weather and moment of bearable weather.
With the transition of Winter to Spring, we cherish the maturing warmth and provide energy to the outside existence.
I have lived in Iowa all my life, I have been apart of every season and have experienced varied weather lengths. I find myself getting frustrated during the colder times, bundled up inside and suffering from cabin fever. I have recently taken this winter to do a lot of inner reflecting, inside myself and my home. Being upset with the outside activities will change nothing and being inactive with the temperature doesn’t benefit me… just makes the winter woes win over me.
I no longer see the weather as an enemy, now just a new setting of my life.You become more appreciative towards your given day, more inviting to the rare bursts of warm embraces and more involved in natures dynamism. You learn to accept the current environment and adapt to Mother Earth’s fallen essence. Every downfall, obstacle or trouble causes a new opportunity for growth and beginning of change.
I am blessed to say I live in a state with four seasons, every changed leaf is a way to renew yourself in nature’s turnover. A fresh wind to flow outside your home and absorb in the magic of the season. I have been observing nature a lot more, the layers of sunsets colors, the activity between the breeze of the trees and the interaction with animals and insects.
We are all apart of the beautiful manifestation of life, the developers of natures environment and the observers of progressing seasons. As visitors and travelers of Earth, it is our role to take care of the plants and grounds that fill our horizons. It is our role to appreciate and show respect to the other living organisms and forms of creation. In order to vibrate with our external world, we must value our internal world and capture our rightful place. Once we are unified with this connection, our attachment to love and home carries with us where ever we may be.
Home is the serenity which we hold close to our heart. The sweet reminisces of childhood, the contentment of belonging and the ease of being loved. No matter where I travel, embark a new life or lay for night’s rest, I shut my eyes to the wholesomeness of where my heart resides and those who fill my scenes of completion.
APPRECIATE YOUR NATURE AND NURTURE OF HOME
What is it to Love? What does it take to Love or be in Love? Why is every heartache, melody, happiness, mystery or madness stem from Love? Why are we in such a search and struggle to find Love?
To Love someone is to love yourself, To Love a trait in another is to love the traits you have within, To Love in full and so purely, we love ourselves and others… flaws and all.
When we are born, we are born from the act of love. We are welcomed with eager eyes and warm hearts waiting to shower us in Love. Family members show love by protecting, nurturing, caring and providing for this new life. We are taught love from our surroundings, sharing, touching, communicating and contributing. How we love and how give love is grasped at a young age. We spend our whole lives circulating around the idea of Love, figuring it out and inquiring varied types.
Love is rooted from inner peace, inner joy and inner satisfaction.
Why not give back to the person you have to live with everyday, required to spend time with, the one who moves and motivates you…. YOURSELF.
Loving one self is to appreciate, listen and provide for the mind, body and spirit. Taking time to nourish the body with vitamins, moisture, water and essentials to feel replenished. Taking time to engage the mind, with yoga, meditation or a book to restore oneself. Taking time to surrender the spirit with a walk, bath, nap or detox to refresh your energy.
This past week for me has been so hectic, I haven’t found enough time for myself or taken time to relax. I have been in constant movement, preparing for Spring break and the future. I lost track of the time I was in, not realizing who I was living for or who I was accomplishing these tasks for. I was pilling events in the free space of my day to make up for lost time. Going to more yoga classes, tanning back to back, eating a lot for missed meals and staying up later to catch up. Every experience was accompanying my obligations and misplaced moments.
My body caught up to me and responded by being burnt on the outside and drained on the inside. I took the first part of the week to take a bath, hydrate my body and calm my mind. I downloaded a meditation music app and actually took a peaceful nap. Meditation and Yoga became more sacred and serene.I channeled in on my center and focused on my body messages. I put my phone away, turned on some music and became wholesome again. Melodies flowed through me, choruses whispered through my ears and slowly fulfilled my inner silence.
Our time lessens when we in a rush to the future, our quality weakens to the detachment of the current moment. What is it to live for yourself and give back to yourself?
I learned a beautiful lesson this week of, learning to love and appreciate yourself. I listened to my body when It told me to slow down and rest. I gave back to this amazing mold by taking care of myself, calmed my machine by resting and revisiting silence. I re-energized my mind, body and spirit by participating in the present and savoring the time with myself.
Today’s Valentines blog is dedicated to the Love within yourself and relationship you hold with your mind, body and spirit.